That's it, I finally decided ... Finally, I think ...
I think for a moment, wondering why I'm writing on this blog.
Sometimes I feel guilty because I do not take the time to write.
Sometimes I wonder if I write for me, or to be read.
Sometimes I wonder if there really people who read me.
Sometimes I wonder if I do not reveal too much.
I sometimes get depressed by the few comments I receive.
Sometimes I have really wanted to write and eventually be too lazy to do so.
My health is better, I have a little more energy and I would by multiplying the activities of all kinds. But I spend much less time in front of my computer.
So for all these reasons, but also for many others a little more personal, I decided to put the key in my blog for a while. I'm not saying I will not write anymore, but right now I feel the need to put an end to my story.
here are a few new bulk:
- I lost 10 pounds in three weeks thanks to Kilo Cardio and my new super quiet magnetic stationary bike in my bike outside for my aunt and my Shape up. I 'm so happy, my new capris are comfy!
- Still no news of the adoption, I begin to believe it's an urban legend or scam.
- My infertility makes me want to sneak out in the backwoods or Arizona, I have great need of escape, but the portfolio can give me. I also want to scream my anger and helplessness to the world, or to demolish a tank with a baseball bat, but I'm civilized.
- You know I love my car Babou well it was attacked. Thugs have ripped him to screw his shot sign of Toyota by scratching the paint of course. I was beside myself. A symbol of Toyota's? Why do bonyeu? The nice head of my garage all covered up as best as possible, but it retains the scars ... Poor little thing.
- I saw my oncologist last Thursday and although I'm not having to scan through, I have one coming up soon. By cons, this is not the return of cancer than monitor image, but my "épasississement of the pleura" and my "nodule." My what?? I had myself so this reaction because I was not aware that by j'épaississais inside along with outside ... This is caused by radiotherapy and this would also be the source of the pain in my lungs.
- Speaking of lungs, I announced with great fanfare that my lung capacity had improved , and well after the official results of the doc, no, there is no real change. Discouragement ...
- We had a beautiful but too short vacation where I among others descended the Mont-Tremblant Hiking (phew), met wapitipis Leaky and other animals in Parc Omega, visited a dairy farm, received syrup Maple house really too good gift, eating a pie Oreos really enjoyable and chased the field mouse at three in the morning.
- I am frustrated by the return to school on my street who brings an unnamed din with a parade of school buses, scooters, cars modified dreamboats the old muffler and tired parents rushed.
- And finally, I am worried, turned upside down, sad, disgusted and so on ... My little cousin is 13 years old suffering from an aggressive form of bone cancer and words fail me to translate my concern and helplessness when I think of him ... The same emotions and many others jostle in me when I think of the four children of my cousin that I love more than anything and who are currently experiencing a separation of the most terrible. Fortunately, I can take my place among them and help them as best I can. The moments I spend with them is magical and allows me to find happiness. I love them and their pain hurts me too ... I but to hear them call me "auntie" and wondered "when will you come see us there?" fills me with joy.
That complete, I think, this list. Well, I only wish you all a beautiful late summer and I hope you're like me, I can not wait to see snow! Yes, yes, I can not wait to go skiing! And that damned heat wave goes away, I have trouble breathing through my old lungs unimproved ...
you soon I hope, and for those (or rather those) who are in my playlist, I still read you with joy!